Freedom.

What a relief! End-of-term examinations are over. I passed everything on the first approach (I don’t have to retake any exams). I can finally take a breath and do nothing. Simply nothing.

I’m at home now, with my parents, and I have to say I haven’t thought I’d ever miss my hometown where I’m dependent. But I really did. You see, last 3 weeks at my flat in Cracow were the worst weeks ever. Everyone was learning so it was very quiet. The silence was killing us. From time to time one of us couldn’t take it anymore and screamed “I can’t do this anymore!” or “I’m sick of it!”. Believe me or not but we were going nuts in there. Our flat turned into a madhouse.

So I’m glad I’m out of there. Until the end of January the flat was a place of fun, independence, positive craziness but when the end-of-term examinations began this flat started to wake negative associations and it still does. I hope it’ll pass very soon. As soon as my habit of learning. You see, I got into this “hard learning” so deep I don’t know what to do now. Everything I do that is not connected to learning makes me feel bad. I feel sick.

Unfortunately, girls (my flatmates) aren’t done with their examinations yet. I feel very bad for them. They’re tired of this as I was (I didn’t even have strength to be happy outside yesterday) but there’s still long way for them to go. They have more exams than I did that less convenient scheduled. Fingers crossed!

But forget it. I’m happy I’m over it and can’t wait 25th of February ‘cause then we are going to party. The semester starts on 21.02 but I don’t care. I really need to get on the dance floor, drink a lil’bit too much and simply talk silly ‘cause I haven’t done it for more than a month. All I need to do is wait for girls. I can do it. We were at this together and we will get out of it together as well.

Now I have time to think about Linkin Park’s European summer tour. Have to think everything through and start collecting money. This summer I’m seeing them live – period. I’m only interested in Leipzig so far but I’m waiting for dates closer to Poland. Czech Republic maybe? Would be awesome!

-Parker

PS. Check out brand new album of Red – Until We Have Faces. Some songs are really good. I personally fell in love with Buried Beneath and Not Alone.

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@RazorRedNoise – Like I Can’t Believe

It’s so damn good I had to write about it here.

Razor Red Noise (Alex McMillan) has just released brand new song along with video.
Just check it out:

I like his previous work (I’m in love with Ashes, We Escape, In Cirkles, Out Of Reach) but this time I have been seriously touched. Literally. I’m not even ashamed to admit that it made me cry a lil’bit. The combination of moving lyrics, his amazing voice (which is even more beautiful in this song than usual) and simplicity of the video… I have only one word to describe it: b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l.
I can’t stop listening to (and watching) it. The last time I had so was when I got my copy of A Thousand Suns and I was listening to Iridescent over and over again.

I doubt Alex will read this, but if… Thank you, Alex, very much for this. Good artist delivers emotions to his/her listeners and you have just done it.

 

I know it’s hard but you have to read between the lines
And when the sky comes down just don’t lose your mind
Of all the good that’s left in you
There’s not enough to make it through
And when your darkest fears come true
There’s nothing you can do

I’m losing my senses, they’re fleeing from me
I’m losing everything I have, like I can’t believe

There’s only one way to turn, just look in your heart
Trust the feelings there, don’t go back to the start
Beneath the shade of your eyes I’m trapped in the blue
And for the dark days ahead I’ll forget what I can’t undo

Of all the good that’s left in you
There’s not enough to make it through
And when your darkest fears come true
There’s nothing you can do

I’m losing my senses, they’re fleeing from me
I’m losing everything I have, like I can’t believe
I’m breaking the surface, I’m trying to breathe
I’ve broken all my promises, like I can’t believe

Oh / The seconds tick away
Oh / The colours fade to gray
Oh / The echoes in my head
Oh / This is not the end

I’m losing my senses, they’re fleeing from me
I’m losing everything I have, like I can’t believe
I’m fighting for purpose, the darker side of me
Is growing stronger every day
Like I can not believe

 

Beautiful.