So I’m sitting in a tram and on one of the stops the guy gets on the tram. He was quite big but if you would see his stick you wouldn’t pay attention to his size. The stick was HUGE and was engraved with words:
SPEAK SOFTLY. CARRY BIG STICK
So deep, dude,
– Are you happy?
– Yes, I’m really happy.
– You seem to be so sure. Why’s that?
– I love and I’m being loved. I have many friends and two of them are the best ones. I have a roof to live under, I have food to put on my plate, I’m healthy (at least I’m not aware there’s something wrong yet), I can hear, I can see and I can run. And I’m being loved. Of course I could be more happy if there were no wars, no poverty and no suffering in the world. Of course I could be more happy. But I’m very happy as it is right now. I’m really grateful for my life. Especially now, when I have someone to share it with. After such long time of waiting I just worship it everyday. Still learning though.
Generally nothing falls apart for me so often.
But when it does, it’s a big time.
No tricks this time – I’m talking about myself.
I’m not the same person I used to be almost 10 months ago.
I’m more self-confident now. I explore my value that I seem to have forgotten about.
I smile a lot as I always used to, but now almost every smile is frank. Because sometimes laugh and smile were my way to deal with tough things, now I barely have to.
Along many good things I’ve gotten that.
I’ve gotten so much and I know it’s only begun.
I still cannot believe it’s true.
But I hope I’m not dreaming.
Taking it away from me would be cruel.
I feel so strong, so safe, so good.
Somebody needs to hear this. Of course he knows that.
I need to
say repeat that. As it’s important.
Say it. Say it many times. Such things have to be told. Such things have to be heard.
Christmas time. m got an useful book.
m: „Did you get any interesting christmas gifts?”
M: “it depends on how you understand “interesting”. (…) and what did you get?”
m: „(…) and a book with >interesting< title: „success philosophy – FUCK IT. Fuck your plan for today. Let something amazing happen.”
M: „are you suggesting something? ;p”